long live Africa.

Let’s talk about Africa. I know y’all were wondering. I was too. But then I remembered.

I thought I was gonna die last year. I was given the opportunity to go to Africa for 2-4 weeks and had every intention on going. I started fundraising and paid my first installment. Except one thing happened, my health declined. I was suffocating in my own skin. Between dealing with migraines + vertigo, I'd also become severely depressed. I wasn't working at this time so it was hard to raise money + figure out where my next meal was coming from. If I didn't learn anything else in this season, I learned to pinch my pennies and hold my breath.

Last year was a whirlwind for me. I went through a breakup that hurt me to my core because it ate at my self-confidence + worth as a person in general. I started AND stopped going to church because I allowed my mind to make stuff up and I believed it. Of course I was sick and I actually believed I was dying, like I had some curse or something on me. I started living my best life with no money. I stopped taking my medication. Letting people buy me alcohol and having sex consistently, that opened a whole world I wasn't ready for honestly.

With the facts at hand and completely weighing me down, I deferred my trip. I wasn't even allowed to fly anyway per my doctor because it would've been too much pressure on my head. I didn't even have any money to pay for it. So I pushed it back. I was supposed to go this summer but technically, I'm still not allowed to fly & I still don't have the funds to finance it (who's gonna pay my adult bills while I'm trying to reach the nations?)

So, long live Africa. This trip is still in my heart + I still have my spot secured(I didn't spend y'all money contrary to popular belief). I'm still going. Maybe next year..or later in the year. I'll get there.

Not going on this trip HURT me because I was looking forward to loving on those babies overseas but I am healing because I can express that same love to them...just while I'm still in the states and that hope + love is healing me.

Until the next post,

AjaYvonne

let's heal together.